Sheesh...where does the time go?

Seriously, is it really almost April 1st (it will be here in about an hour an half)? I could swear that I just started my "new" job a few weeks ago and I'm sure Christmas was just yesterday. It's true that the older I get the faster the time goes. I have a theory on that. I think it just seems faster because we are just so darn busy. Busy with family, busy with work, busy with church, busy with friends. You get the picture. I hadn't even realized that it has been almost a week since I posted last until Amber asked me where I've been.

We have been looking for a dog to add to our family. We haven't had any luck yet but we hope that the search will pay off with the perfect dog for our family. Don't get me wrong, the dog doesn't have to be perfect because he wouldn't fit in our family if he was. We just want to make the right choice so we can keep him or her for the long haul.

Blake started T-Ball practice last week. It's his very first sport and hubby is helping to coach the team. So far (only one practice) I think he'd rather be playing on the play structure near the field but we'll see how it goes. I plan on taking the camera tomorrow so I'll have pictures soon.

My new calling is going well but I can't get used to not having to teach each Sunday. I feel very creativity challenged compared to the other leaders but I'm trying so that counts right? Luckily the other leaders are all great and one of them is going to help me dress as Moses mother for Wed nights activity. Thank you Carrie :o)

I'm really torn now about where I should be going in my life as far as my job is concerned. The new job is really stressful but has a lot of perks like being really flexible with my hours. Being able to work from home when I need too etc. Blake will start school in September and I have no clue how that is going to fit into our lives. He will only go half a day. I so wish I could just take the year off to be there to drop him off and pick him up. Sometimes I feel like the worst mom in the world because I work outside the home. It's all about choices right? We could sell our home and move into a cheaper rental, drop the Internet, cable etc. *sigh* Life can be so complicated sometimes.

Anyhoo...on a brighter note. My dear sweet bloggy friend Yvonne was kind enough to give me this award.

I would like to pass it along to all of you who comment on my blog. You are the ones that make my day when I read your blogs and I learn so much from you. You are all wonderful women.

Great weekend

What a nice long weekend we had. I was able to take 4 days off without taking a vacation day which was really nice. I am now working 4 10 hour days and it's working great.

Friday I cleaned the house (well, half of it anyway) and my good friend came over so we could find her a dress for her daughters wedding. After we accomplished this task, we went had a nice pedicure and had some good quality girl time.

Saturday we hit the ground running. First we went grocery shopping and then we headed out to hit up all the places that would have rescue dogs up for adoption. We visited 4 different places but didn't have any luck. Lots of dogs but none that seemed just right for our family. The search will continue. Then we stopped by for a quick visit to a little carnival that was in town so Blake could ride a few rides. We then went to see Horton Hears a Who which really was very cute movie. They kept a lot of the rhyming from the book which I really liked. By this time we were all super tired so we grabbed some dinner and headed home.

Sunday was a wonderful Easter day minus the pooring rain. Sacrament meeting was very good and the spirit was in abundance. After church we headed over to hubbys aunts house for a family feast and egg hunt. I completely spaced taking my camera so no pictures but just think of a cute little boy in his cute little Easter outfit hunting and finding all the eggs because he was the only kid there. He didn't mind when it came to getting all the candy and goodies.

Monday was a good day to sleep in and then I had a dentist appt to get a root canal. No, that wasn't part of the great weekend but just being able to come home to both of my boys (who happen to be my favorite people in the world to be with) makes it count.

Now, I'll go back to work to rest...LOL Hope you all had a nice Easter weekend.

Book Tag or something like it

I was over at one of my favorite blogs and saw this fun little book taggie thingy. Dazzled you there for a minute with my my technical terms didn't I? So..here are the rules or guidelines if you are more like my friend B.

The rules:
1. Pick up the nearest book (at least 123 pages)
2. Turn to page 123
3. Find the 5th sentence
4. Post the 5th sentence on your blog
5. Tag 5 people

I'm not near my bookshelf upstairs so the pickings were a little slim but I did find one called True to the Faith: A gospel reference. I turned to page 123 and under the section listed "Receiving answers to prayer" The 5th sentence reads "He may sometimes answer no, even when your petitions are sincere"

Boy isn't that the truth. There have been many times in my life where my petitions were sincere and I would even say righteous desires such as having children when I have been told no. I do find that I usually see the reason at some point but it's awfully hard to wait and there are some that I am still waiting on.

This was really fun and since I am a rule follower..ahem..LOL I will tag Yvonne, Nancy, Charlotte, Melissa and Mo Mommy.

Thinking of going private

I'm seriously considering going private with my blog. Not so much for the security of my family (although that wouldn't hurt) but because this blog isn't really turning into what I wanted it to be. When I first started, I thought it would be a great place to journal about my life since I have never been good at it in "real" life.

On one hand, I have done this but on the other, I feel like I often self censor my blogs because I don't want to sound too negative or too whatever. I want to be able to write some of my most real and raw feelings because it is part of who I am. I do love that I have some loyal people who read my blog on a regular basis and I appreciate it. I even look forward to reading the comments that are left. So....I'm torn.

Do you ever feel that you censor what you write because you know who is reading and you just might know them in "real" life?

Maybe I should just create a new blog that is private and is all mine where I can put my innermost thoughts and feelings and keep this one as well. Maybe I can make this one private and give access to those who want it. Hmmm...need to think about this a bit.

Gratitude's

Looking at the last two posts I realized what a whiner I've been lately. Today I shall combat that with a list of gratitude's.

-Of course my hubby and son. I have such a wonderful family. We are goofy and we embrace it. I really do love them with all of my heart and soul. Every single day they make me laugh and feel so very loved. No matter how bad my day is, I know that the moment I walk in the house I'll have a kiss and hug or two and then nothing else matters.

-I am thankful for our home. It isn't the biggest house on the block but it's ours (well, the banks but you know) and I'm thankful to have a warm safe place to lay my head at night.

-I'm thankful for my new calling. I think I'm really going to enjoy it. The girls are great and the other leaders are awesome.

-I'm thankful for my job. While, I would rather be staying home with my son each day, I'm glad that I have the means to help take care of our family. My job can be a pain but at least I have one when so many don't.

-I'm thankful for that smell right after rain especially now that some flowers are blooming.

-I'm thankful for good friends that I know would be there for me in a heartbeat. I have been truly blessed to have these people in my life. They have proved themselves over and over again. They laugh with me, cry with me, love me and just really get me.

-I'm thankful for music and how it really touches me in so many ways.

-I'm thankful for this blog because it is a great place for me to record some history and express myself.

-I'm thankful that for the first time all week I got a whole six hours of sleep last night and it was good sleep.

-I'm thankful that hubby will be going to the temple for the first time Friday night (youth baptisms) and I get to go with him.

I'm sure that I could go on and on but I'll spare you. Let me just say that I am truly thankful for all the I have been blessed with. I really need to do these posts more often to keep things in perspective. Thanks Melissa for reminding me of this today.

I should be sleeping

It's 12:32 a.m. and here I am sitting at the computer instead of sleeping. Do I have a day off tomorrow and so I'm living it up our here in cyberspace? Ummm...no. I just can't sleep and I have to be up and in the shower at 4:00 a.m. This is the pits. I have tried every trick I know and it's just not working. So here I am....let the rambling begin.

We are in the process of trying to find a dog for out family. I've never really had dogs but I like them and hubs and Blake have been wanting one for a long time. We're trying really hard not to get one on a impulse. We want to make sure it fits our family.

Part of the reason I can't sleep is because I can't get my mind to shut off. I keep running through all the things in my life that just aren't getting done. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get it all under control.

Blake is starting to take an interest in learning to read so we bought Hooked on Phonics. He's started to try to sound out words wherever we are and it's so cute. We were in the store today and he was trying to sound out Pharmacy. As I try to help him learn this skill I wonder how any of us learn to read with all these different rules in the English language. It's so fun to see his mind just working away as he tries to figure it all out.

Well, I guess that it's for now. I'm going back to bed to try again. Some sleep is better than none right?

Is it just me?

Or are there others out there that think we should just leave the time alone already? Daylight Savings Time is a double edged sword. While I enjoy the extra daylight it really messes my sleep schedule up and it takes my body awhile to adjust. I needed to be asleep last night but instead I was wide awake and watching the clock. I am exhausted this morning. Getting up at 4am is soooo NOT fun sometimes but it's worth it. End of whining.

Another Question

Charlotte, who is a newer friend of mine out here in bloggy land asked this

Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?

Unfortunately the answer is yes. I have been pulled over exactly one time and gotten exactly one ticket. Many moons ago I drove a little red Ford Festiva and it had some mechanical problems. One day while driving it home it was pouring down rain the car was acting up. I was just sure that it was going to break down and leave me stranded. I was on a road where the speed limit was 35 and turned on to another where it was 25 but I didn't realize it. Therefor, I did not adjust my speed. Therefor, I was going 36 miles over and was pulled over and written a ticket. I really felt like I should just get a warning but he said the area had been targeted and he had to give me a ticket. WHATEVER...but I'm not bitter or anything..LOL

Knock on wood, I have never been pulled over again. I'm pretty much a rule follower when it comes to speed. How about you guys? Tell me your stories.

and you thought that I forgot.....

Remember way back here when I asked for some ideas to blog about. I started answering and then life happened and well......better late than never right? A sweet bloggy friend Elaine asked the following

"I'd love to know a little about your childhood and siblings. maybe one of your favorite childhood memories with your siblings"

I touched on this topic a little in my 100 things about me post but I'll try to explain my childhood a little more.

My father was in the airforce when I was born. He got out when I was three. He divorced my birth mother when I was 4 and I really don't have many memories of her. She was addicted to a couple of substances that made it really hard (read impossible) for her to function as a mother. I do remember her sleeping a lot and my sister who is 8 years old than I am really took care of me.

Soon after divorcing my birth mom, my father married a wonderful woman named Betty who became my mother. She was everything I needed and as I have said many times, she saved me. We didn't have much money but we were happy. Soon, we moved to a farm and soon my sister grew up and moved away. A couple of my cousins lived with us for several years and became my surrogate brothers. We had a lot of good times on the farm. My mom was very playful and when my dad was gone we would have food fights, water fights and any other kind of cheap fun she could dream up. My dad was an alcoholic which made it difficult for anyone to live with him an eventually they split up.

He wouldn't allow me to stay with who technically was my step-mother so I had to live with him. This was a really hard time for me because I wanted to be with the only mom I had ever really know but he wouldn't allow it. She had no legal claim. He married again to someone that had raised her kids and was in no mood to start again with a teenager. They divorced when I was 18 and I can't say that I was sad about it.

The good news in this really kind of depressing post is that in the end my mom (technically my stop mom) and my dad got back together in the end. They really were soul mates and I believe they are together again in the next world. I know it sounds like my life was kind of difficult and at times it was but I have many good memories and all the things I went through shaped me into the person I am today (explains a LOT doesn't it..LOL)

Come out..come out wherever you are

So, we went to Freddy's last night a.k.a. Fred Meyer and while my hubby was looking for a new pillow he said that a woman came up to him and said that he knew all about him and his family because she reads my blog. The only problem was that he didn't recognize her. So...spill it. Who was it? Enquiring minds want to know.