Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Don't put off saying it

I'm in a bit of a emotional/nostalgic mood so I hope you can forgive me. I just want to say how important it is that we tell those people in our life how we feel about them. The good, the bad and the ugly. People often tell me that I wear my heart no my sleeve ( I can't argue that) I am one of those people that, no matter how hard I try, I am unable to hide my feelings with much success. If I'm mad, glad, sad, frustarted, hurt, angry, in love, excited etc. you are going to know about it. Sometimes it works to my advantage and sometimes I'd like to be able to turn it off. One thing I can say though is that those that I love know that I love them. Those that have hurt me, know that they have hurt me. I never want to leave this world and have someone wonder how I felt about them. I never want someone to leave my world and have something left unsaid. I had some struggles growing up with my alcoholic father and it took me a long time to forgive him and tell him so but once I did I felt so free. The only one hurting from my harbored ill feelings was me. When he passed away 4 years ago, I knew that I had told him everything that I had always wanted to and he knew that I loved him regardless. There was no unfinished business (at least on my part). I was also able to do this with my birth mother that abandoned me when I was 4 years old. My whole life I was angry with her. I never tried to see it from her point of view. Forgiving her and having the chance to tell her that was truly a weight lifted off my shoulders. I may never speak to her again (because of circumstances) but at least she knows that I understand she did the best she could do with the tools she had. Noone is perfect. I hope that if there is something that you have been wanting to say to somone but were afraid that you will take the risk and let them know. If you love someone, tell them. Life is so fragile and there may not be another tomorrow. Hug them, kiss them and tell them. On the flip side, if there is hurt, tell them. They may not say "oh you were so right, I have wronged you, forgive me" but I promise that you will feel better and be able to start to forgive. I don't mean to insinuate that any of this is easy because it's not but I just wanted to tell you how it has helped me in my life. So before I go, I just want to say that "I love you" and that I love doing this blog. If you made it this far you deserve a prize...LOL


Kimberly said...

I love how you expressed that! The truth of it simply shines through. =)

Carrie said...

I love what you said about your father. It must feel so good that you were able to say good-bye to him without any sore feelings.

You're a great example of forgiveness. I hope that I can be as understanding and loving throughout life.

Thanks for such a beautiful post!