Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Missing you mom

I can't believe it's been 3 years ago today that I lost my mom. I really do miss her. She taught me so much about being a mom and that it's much more than just giving birth to a child. She taught me to laugh when things were hard. She taught me that I could be whatever I wanted. She taught me not to live in the past and that the past did not have to define me.

I'm only sad because I can't talk to her today or open her annual musical Christmas card. I know she is in a better place and I know her heart and I'm sure that she has accepted the gospel. She is no longer in pain. She is watching over me. It seems I can feel her near at times. Today is one of those times.

I love you mom. I know I will see you again. I look forward to that sweet reunion. Thank you for all you taught me and for loving that little 5 year old messed up girl when you didn't have to. Thank you for being my mom.

10 comments:

Melissa said...

Tonya - I'm sure your mom is watching over you! HUGS!!
Merry Christmas

Lyon Pride said...

That was really sweet. Here's a blog hug from me :) Merry Christmas!

Yvonne said...

Tonya: What a wonderful post. I'm sure your mom is very proud of the fantastic mom you are and that she is watching over you.

Merry Christmas to you and your family.

chellie said...

So sweet Tonya... hugs to you.

Amber said...

I'm so sorry--what a beautiful note to her. My beloved aunt passed away on Christmas a few years ago so my holiday is always bittersweet as well.

b. said...

Sheesh, on Christmas Eve?
As one who knows that sadness...I send you a big hug!
I'm sure she is somehow guiding and assisting you from the other side.

I know she is proud of you...how could she not?

Lammy said...

Merry Christmas Tanya!!
I don't get to post comments very often, but I still lurk when I get a chance!
May your 2009 be filled with joy and happiness!

Corrine said...

I am so sorry about your loss. Sounds like she was a wonderful mother to you.

lots of love, and merry christmas...

ps were you adopted?

Corrine said...

I am so sorry about your loss. Sounds like she was a wonderful mother to you.

lots of love, and merry christmas...

ps were you adopted?

Nancy Face said...

I'm so sorry she passed away on Christmas Eve. This was a very sweet post. (((((HUGS)))))