How on earth can 6 years go by and it feel like only a minute? Blake is 6 years old today. He's very excited to need 2 hands to show his age on now. He has a party scheduled tomorrow with 10 of his friends and cousins and is very excited. Tonight we will take him to dinner wherever he wants to go and then we might go see Madagascar 2.
I can't believe that it's been six years ago today when they placed this sweet child in my arms and I became not just Tonya but a mother. I had yearned for it for so many years that the moment was the sweetest of my life. I knew the moment I saw him that he was mine. I couldn't physically carry him for some reason (I'll be asking about that when I see Heavenly Father) but the Lord made sure he got to me. These last six years have been the most joyful of my life. Yes, they have been the hardest but the rewards far outweigh the grief. I never knew the capacity that my heart had to love until I met this little child. The amazing thing is that the love just continues to grow. Just when I think that I can't possibly love him more, my heart seems to expand and make room. Yes, he is a challenge and is always testing me to make sure that I'm still the boss. But wow this kid is amazing. He's smart, funny, inquisitive, compassionate and has a zest for life that is rarely matched. He makes me laugh on a daily basis with his view of the world and often frustrates me in the next breath. He's into everything superhero or Star Wars and so wants to be older than he is. He loves his mommy and daddy and likes us all to be together. If Tim and I are gone he always asks the other one when we will be home because things just aren't right unless we are all under one roof. He loves his grandma and grandpa it seems sometimes more than his mom and dad. They are very close and have him over all the time. He loves almost every child he meets and instantly wants to have a play date. I feel bad sometimes that he's an only child be he has lots of sudo brothers and sisters.
I'm so thankful that I was chosen to be this little mans mom. What a amazing and overwhelming experience it has been. I look forward to doing my best to raise him right and watch him become the amazing man that I know he will be. Heaven help me. Literally.