And now we wait

I am happy to report that the surgery went well. Tim is home and upstairs sleeping. They had some trouble getting an IV in him. Poor guy looks like a pin cushion. He has a pretty good size incision but the doctor said everything looked as he expected it to and there was no obvious sign of it spreading.

Now we wait for the results to get back and then go from there. Thank you so much for all the thoughts and prayers. I could feel them for sure. We are so blessed to have so many good friends and the best church family in the world.

Life can change on a dime

I've debated about posting about this but in the interest of recording the goings on of the Kelley family I have decided to go ahead. We've always been an open about what's happening our lives whether that be good or bad. I'm also of the mind that the more prayers the better so bring it on..LOL

Tim is having surgery tomorrow. We have to be at the hospital at 545am and he's set for 730am. They will be removing a tumor that they are about 90 % sure is cancerous. It's been a few days shy of two weeks since he started this process by seeing his family doctor. He sent him for a ultrasound last Wed, we saw the surgeon Tuesday and the surgery is tomorrow. Sometimes, as you know, things can drag along and I'm happy this is moving so swiftly. Think "Lance Armstrong" cancer and we'll leave it at that. This is a G rated blog after all.

They will remove the tumor, send it to be tested which will take anywhere from 5 to 10 days and then let us know what we're dealing with. There is a chance that it will be benign but the doctor feels pretty sure it won't be. The good news is that this type of cancer is VERY treatable. Even if it has spread. It's the number one cancer that men get. In Lance Armstrongs case, it had spread to his abdomen and even his brain and they were able to treat him and he has made a full recovery. After the surgery, Tim will then have more diagnostic tests, CTI's, MRI's, etc to determine if it has made it's way anywhere else in the body.

Tim is nervous and little scared (okay, me too) but I feel confident that it will all be okay. Might be a bumpy road but we're ready for it. The hardest part will be the waiting after the surgery to find out what we're dealing with. I'm not good at waiting. Patience is not a virtue I possess. I know, big surprise for those who know me.

I'll be taking time off work to help him recover as they do have to make a several inch incision in his abdomen. I'm so thankful for my faith and for this gospel. I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful group of friends and family that have already offered help. I do so love this gospel. I'm not sure how people get through this kind of stuff without it.

I'll post more when I know more.

6 measly times

That's all I've posted this year, 6 measly little times. I'd like to write more often but a) I don't usually have time and 2) I'm just not that creative. I am starting to think like a blogger and take my camera more often but I just don't have something to talk about every day. Am I in a rut? Am I missing things that I should be writing down for my posterity to know about? Will they look back at this someday and think "Wow, mom/grandma/great-granny was sure a boring chick"

I want them to know how much I laugh every single day. How much my son touches my heart with his little acts of love even when we're having a challenging day. How much joy both he and his father bring to my life. I live with my best friend. We have our ups and downs just like everyone else but I know without a doubt that he's there for me no matter what. I'm so far from perfect and they love me anyway. They have seen my worst and still come back for more. Even on the hardest day at home, I'd rather be there than anywhere.

So, for any of my kin that read this down the road, please know that mom/grandma/great-granny etc was not a boring chick and certainly did not live a boring life. I just didn't always get time to write it down. I was just to busy living and loving it.

Trying to freeze time and puppy love?

You know those moments where you'd just like to freeze time and keep it there for a little while longer. I had one of those tonight. It wasn't that big of a deal really. I'm making dinner, Tim is checking his email and Blake is outside drawing pictures on the patio. Blake keeps running in and asking me to look at what he has done. He's so proud of himself. He drew a picture of a tree with a swing and little apples and he drew a house and the last thing he drew was this

It says "To Mom fum Blake". His drawings have come a long way since he started kindergarten. His teacher would be proud of how he wrote his name. I'm amazed lately at how well he's reading and writing. It seems a switch has turned on. It's really not the pictures that made me want to freeze time. It was just an average sweet moment. Can't I keep him this age for a little long than a year?

In other news, the next picture is Lexies little way of saying I love you. This was a new box of Puff's plus that I had just bought. Not just any old Kleenex but Puffs Plus. Gotta love this new chewing phase.

My alter egos

To find your ROCK STAR NAME take your first pet & current car: Icky Chevy

To find your GANGSTA NAME take your favorite ice cream flavor and your favorite cookie: Udderly chocolate chip

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME? Your favorite color and favorite animal: Red Tiger

Want to know your SUPERHERO NAME? Just add the word "The" plus your 2nd favorite color, and your favorite drink: The Blue Diet Coke.

Your NASCAR NAME. Take the first names of your grandfathers: Lawrence Henry

If I ever go into WITNESS PROTECTION you can find me with this name. Ann Edward

TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME? Thomas Toronto

Of course, if you find me in witness protection I will assume it was because you were using your SPY NAME. Winter Oriental Lilly

Find your CARTOON NAME by taking your favorite fruit, and an article of clothing you’re wearing right now, then add "ie" or "y": Banana Shirtie

Your ROCKSTAR TOUR is heading across the northeast...it's called "The” + Your fave hobby/craft, your fave weather element + the word “Tour”: The blogging snow tour.

Bethle-HAM?

I know that my son might not be all that entertaining to my handful of readers but he cracks me up and I don't want to forget these little jewels that he comes up with.

Last night on the way to Costco, we were singing Christmas Bells because it seems to be eternally stuck in my head.

It goes like this:

"Christmas Bells are ringing..hear what they say to you...Jesus is born in Bethlehem....in Bethlehem. "

After singing through a few times Blake pipes up from the back and says "Mom, why was Jesus born in Ham"

You know that he must have been thinking about this for awhile because we sang this song in primary this Christmas and it's been stuck in my head. I guess we all need to enunciate a little better..LOL

**Sidenote: This is my 202nd post. I'll try to think of some fabulous post to mark the occasion but if you have any ideas, I'd love to hear it.

Funny Boy

The other day in the car, hubby and I were having a conversation with Blake and he started talking about getting married. He said he knew who he was going to marry now and it wasn't Lexie (sorry Lexie) the girl he's been saying he's going to marry for a long time. He has found someone new. The trouble is that this girl wants to have nothing to do with him. We tried to explain that he didn't need to worry about who he was going to marry for a long long time but his crush won't be "crushed"..LOL Pardon the awful pun. Anywho, the conversation went something like this.

Blake: I'm going to marry Riley.

Us: Oh really, don't you think that might be hard when she won't talk to you and doesn't seem to like you.

Blake: Don't worry Mom, she'll get used to me.

You can't say the child isn't self confident, that's for sure.

One Word

Your Word is "Love"

You see life as possibility to form deep connections with a few people. Relationships are the center of your world, and you always take time to bond with those you love. You are caring and giving. You enjoy helping those you love. And when it comes to romantic love, you feel passionately ... even in a very long term relationship.

What's" Your Word?

Thinking about putting ourselves out there...again

Hubby and I had a conversation last night about something that has been on my mind for quite some time now. We talked about adopting another child. Now we have had this discussion before so many times and would have already done it if it weren't for the money required through most agencies.

I've had this feeling lately that we need forget about the agencies and start the process of adoption through the state or Oregon. We have also talked about this over the years as we had started this a little over 6 years ago when we found out about Blake. The biggest reason we haven't followed through is because of what we learned about most of the kids that come through for adoption with the state. Most have been abused, neglected, exposed to drugs and a myriad of other horrors that you can hardly imagine. I've been worried that I couldn't give all that these children would need because I work outside the home. It wouldn't be fair to them.
I still feel that way to some degree but I also can't shake the feeling that our family isn't complete.

I was 4 1/2 when the woman I consider to be my mom came into my life. I had been through the ringer. I'm sure not as badly as most of the kids that are up for adoption through the state but I had my share of baggage. She worked outside the home and still managed to make me feel loved, wanted and cared for. It took some time but I bonded with her.
Maybe we could make it work. Maybe it's time to quit coming up with reasons why it won't work and show a little faith.

We're going to the temple on Saturday with our ward and we're going to take a prayer with us about this and we're also going to fast about it. We should have done this sooner I realize that but sometimes we a little slow on the uptake..lol

Maybe, just maybe there is a little person out there that needs us as much as we need them. Time will tell.