Hubby and I had a conversation last night about something that has been on my mind for quite some time now. We talked about adopting another child. Now we have had this discussion before so many times and would have already done it if it weren't for the money required through most agencies.
I've had this feeling lately that we need forget about the agencies and start the process of adoption through the state or Oregon. We have also talked about this over the years as we had started this a little over 6 years ago when we found out about Blake. The biggest reason we haven't followed through is because of what we learned about most of the kids that come through for adoption with the state. Most have been abused, neglected, exposed to drugs and a myriad of other horrors that you can hardly imagine. I've been worried that I couldn't give all that these children would need because I work outside the home. It wouldn't be fair to them.
I still feel that way to some degree but I also can't shake the feeling that our family isn't complete.
I was 4 1/2 when the woman I consider to be my mom came into my life. I had been through the ringer. I'm sure not as badly as most of the kids that are up for adoption through the state but I had my share of baggage. She worked outside the home and still managed to make me feel loved, wanted and cared for. It took some time but I bonded with her.
Maybe we could make it work. Maybe it's time to quit coming up with reasons why it won't work and show a little faith.
We're going to the temple on Saturday with our ward and we're going to take a prayer with us about this and we're also going to fast about it. We should have done this sooner I realize that but sometimes we a little slow on the uptake..lol
Maybe, just maybe there is a little person out there that needs us as much as we need them. Time will tell.